...must be prevented from rejoining his tribesmen. Without betraying this absence to the sleeping guards ('it was written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice'), Marlow slips ashore by himself. 'I was anxious to deal with this shadow by myself alone', he explains,...

...of words heard in dreams, of phrases spoken in nightmares / was anxious to deal with this shadow hy myself alone — and to this day I don't know why I was so jealous of sharing with any one the peculiar blackness of that experience... I had — for my sins. I suppose — to go through the ordeal...

...over and over again how the nightmares are brought about by his choice not to dismiss Kurtz's memory: I did not betray Mr. Kurtz - it was ordered I should...written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice ( 141 ) . . . It is strange how I accepted this unforeseen partnership, this choice of nightmares forced...

...an ulster and sleeping on a chair on deck within three feet of me. The yells had not awakened him; he snored very slightly; I left him to his slumbers...I don't know why I was so jealous of sharing with anyone the peculiar blackness of that experience. 'As soon as I got on the bank I saw a trail - a broad...

...on a chair on deck within three feet of me. The yells had not awakened him; he snored very slighdy, I left him to his slumbers and leaped ashore. I did...I don't know why I was so jealous of sharing with anyone the peculiar blackness of that experience. 'As soon as I got on the bank I saw a trail - a broad...

...an ulster and sleeping on a chair on deck within three feet of me. The yells had not awakened him; he snored very slightly; I left him to his slumbers...with this shadow by myself alone, - and to this day I 104 don't know why I was so jealous of sharing with any one the peculiar blackness of that experience....

...desires. Of his faithfulness to Kurtz, Marlow speaks as if this had been predestined, 'it was ordered 1 should never betray him - it was written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice' (p. 104), and he does not apply to himself the stern judgement he had made on the intrepid Russian...

...an ulster and sleeping on a chair on deck within three feet of me. The yells had not awakened him; he snored very slightly; I left him to his slumbers...know why I was so jealous of sharing with any one the peculiar blackness of that experience. "As soon as I got on the bank I saw a trail - a broad trail...

...an attestation. "I have remained loyal to Kurtz," says Marlow, "to the last, and even beyond" (88). "I did not betray Mr. Kurtz — it was ordered I should...written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice" (81). Who did the "ordering" or the "writing" here is not said explicitly. Presumably Marlow means...

...an ulster and sleeping on a chair on deck within three feet of me. The yells had not awakened him; he snored very slightly; I left him to his slumbers...know why I was so jealous of sharing with any one the peculiar blackness of that experience. "As soon as I got on the bank I saw a trail — a broad trail...