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had placed him. 'Not a single struggle had the dear, apprehensive man, during those expiring moments, which, through his whole life, he had expected would be productive of such extreme torture. He slept in Jesus, in full confidence of a glorious Resurrection.

From this hour, until the interment, our house was thronged; but of all our numerous friends, who by their presence expressed their sympathy, no individuals appeared more deeply affected than my future patrons, Mr. and Mrs. Little. My father was very dear to Mr. Little ; he mingled his tears with the widow, and her orphans. It was unnecessary to tell me I had sustained an irreparable loss, my heart, my pierced heart, was every moment making the avowal ; I could now fully appreciate my father's worth ; I felt I was bereaved, miserably bereaved ; left to myself, and I knew myself well enough to justify the most spirit-wounding apprehensions. I retired to my chamber, to my closet, secretly indulging my overwhelming sorrow, and if I ever experienced the fervour of devotion, it was then, when, throwing abroad my supplicating hands, I petitioned the God of my father to be my God also, entreating that he would graciously vouchsafe to preserve me from myself, my sinful self: all the hard, undutiful reflections, which I had secretly tolerated against this good, this honoured man, while he was enduring exquisite sufferings for the purpose of preserving me from evil, rushed upon my recollection, and an innate monitor seemed to 6. You

may now, ungrateful boy, go where you please ; the prying eye of a father will no more inspect your conduct.” It was now, in these moments of torture, that my father, as it should seem, first became known to 'me. It is true, he was severely good, his conscience was indeed sorely tender ; but, as far as he knew, he performed the will 'of God, at least in as great a measure as he was able, and when he believed himself deficient, as he almost always did, it gave him great pain. The uniform sanctity of his life commanded the respect, the esteem, the affection, and even the veneration of all who knew him. He pos. sessed an uncommon share of natural abilities, and his acquirements were very respectable. He had read much ; History, Natural Philosophy, Poetry, these were all familiar to him ; but the sacred Scriptures, and books of devotion, were his delight. Human productions constituted his amusement, but the word of his God was his food. He was so acute a reasoner, that it was difficult to gain any advantage over him in argument; yet he was easily provoked, but immediately sensible of error ; every deviation from propriety was marked by tears.

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had so much self-command, as never to strike a child in a passion, this he denominated a demoniac sacrifice ; he would first correct the angry man : but however painful the act, he never omitted what he conceived it his duty to bestow. He was a very tender-hearted man, and his prayers were rarely unaccompanied by tears. He mourned with the mourner, for he was himself a man of sorrow. Being for the last nineteen years of his life a confirmed invalid, he was constantly, and fervently looking toward his heavenly home--sometimes with impatience, when, correcting himself, he would say, “ Well, well, Heaven is worth waiting for: one hour, passed in the courts of my God, will be a rich remuneration for all terrestrial sufferings."

It is the custom in Ireland, when any person of distinction or respectability is called out of time, to watch around their remains, night as well as day, until the body be entombed. The remains of my father were affectionately attended, but they were attended in an uncommon manner; as he differed from others in life, so these last honours differed from those usually bestowed. The morning immediately succeeding his demise, our friends and neighbours assembled in our dwelling, when Mr. Little thus addressed them : “My friends, it hath pleased God to take unto himself the soul of our beloved brother; as he lived, so he died, a pattern of excellence; we know, we feel, that he has not left his equal. We unite with this dear family in sensibly lamenting the departure of our experienced friend, our guide, our comforter.” Here he mingled his tears with those of our attendant friends. After a long pause, he proceeded : “Fellow mourners, the greatest respect we can pay to the remains of our inestimable, our heavenly guide, is to pass our time together in this house of mourning, not for him, but for ourselves, in the way which would be most pleasing to him, were he present ; we will therefore appropriate our hours to reading, and to prayer. One of our brethren will address the throne of grace, after which I will read a sermon, the production of Mr. Erskine, of whose writings the dear departed was remarkably fond.” The prayer, the sermon, the concluding prayer, deeply affected every one ; and the evening witnessed a renewal of these pious exercises. Thus were our nights and days devoted, until the interment. On that day the throng was prodigious. The worth, the good actions of my father, were the theme of many a tongue ; his praises were echoed, and re-echoed, while tears of sorrow moistened many an eye. Every one bore in his, or her hand, to the grave-yard, a sprig of bays, which, after the body

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was deposited, was thrown over the coffin. But no words can describe my agonizing, my terrific sensations, when I reflected upon the charge which had devolved upon me. I remembered my father's words, on the evening preceding his exit, and I felt myself reduced to the necessity of assuming his place in the family ; but how much was I to suffer by comparison with him, whose place I was appointed to fill : yet, had I wished to avoid entering upon my office, my mother, the friends of my father, would have borne testimony against me. They thronged around me, they entreated me immediately to take charge of the family, and to commence my arduous task by devout supplications to Almighty God. I complied with their united wishes ; but no tongue can utter, no language can delineate the strong emotions of my soul : again I was convulsed, again I agonized; the whole family were inexpressibly affected. It was the most melancholy evening I had ever experienced ; but my benighted spirit was suddenly refreshed, by a ray of consolation, emitted by the cheering hope, that my father's God would be my God, and that the fervent prayers he bad offered up, in my behalf, would be answered in my favour. I was encouraged too by my mother, and by the friends of my father, who besought the Lord in my behalf, and who were daily reminding me of the interest, which

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deceased parent unquestionably had with the prayer-hearing God.

Yet, although soothed, and greatly stimulated, my new employment continued to distress, and appal my spirit. The conviction of

every day assured me, that I was unequal to the arduous task I had undertaken. My mother was my ever-ready aid and counsellor ; but my brothers and sisters always remembered, that I was not their father ; and they were highly displeased, whenever I presumed to exercise over them paternal authority ; yet this I believed to be my duty, and, that I might be in every thing like my father, I took up the rod of correction, seriously chastising my brother, for the purpose of restoring him to the narrow path, from which he had wandered. But, although I had learned of my father to use the rod, I never could make it answer the same purpose ; in my hand, it only served to increase the evil, it became the signal of revolt; and, while my brother continued incorrigible, my other brothers, and my sisters, enlisted on his side. My mother, dear honoured sufferer, was exceedingly distressed ; she had in fact a difficult part to act; she was fearful, whichever side she might espouse, would, by creating new irritation, make bad, worse, and yet, upon an occasion so interesting, we would not allow her to be silent, she must

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positively attend to our'appeals. But however arduous her task, she possessed discretion sufficient to meet it, and to produce an ultimatum completely satisfactory to all parties.

She replied to our remonstrances, by a request to be allowed until the evening, succeeding our complaints, for serious deliberation. The interesting evening came. “Come, my children, all equally dear to my soul : come, the doors are now shut; this is the time of evening service. There is the chair, which your pious, your affectionate father, once filled. Can you not remember the last time he addressed you from that seat. Let me, my dear children, let me repeat, as well as my memory will permit, what he said to us the last time he addressed us from that chair. “ Come,” said he, come near me, my children,” when, folding his arms around your elder brother, and pressing him to his bosom, while shedding over him abundance of tears, and pouring out his soul in supplication for him, he most affectingly said :

I am, my dear child, hastening to that heaven, for which I have so long waited. For you, ever since you were born, I have wept and prayed ; graciously hath my God inclined his ear to the voice of my supplication. He hath blessed me, by giving me to see you, before I die, pre pared, by divine favour, to take my place; I leave you my dear son, to act a father's part, when I shall be here no more ;

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your mother, your brothers, and your sisters, receive from you that attention, and care, they can no more obtain from me ; but, although I shall be no more with you, your God, your father's God, will never leave nor forsake you. Nay, my own beatified spirit may obtain increasing felicity, by being sometimes permitted to behold the order, and harmony of my beloved family, while collected before the throne of grace, with the love of God, and love of each other, glowing with divine ecstacy in every bosom." It was then, my precious children, that your devout father clasped you separately to his bosom ; you remember how he then spake to you: “I go, my beloved children ; you will no more hear my voice from this chair ; I shall no more be able to pray with you, to advise, or to direct you. But, my children, I leave with you a brother, who will perform to you the part of a father ; I leave him in my place; it is my command, that he tread in my steps, as far as I have proceeded in the path of justice ; and, any dear children, I conjure you to attend to his directions, The eldest son was, of old, the priest in the family of his father; and if you love me, if you love your mother, if

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all in your power to strengthen the hands of your brother.” You remember he then embraced each of you, and wept over you ; and I pray you to remember, that you then solemnly promised, to perform all which your dying father directed you to perform. Perhaps the saint may be at this moment beholding us, in this very spot, in which, a few days previous to his departure out of time, he so affectingly, so tenderly admonished us My mother paused, as if influenced by sacred awe of the presence she had supposed. We audibly wept ; we rushed into each other's arms, we embraced each other, and so long as we continued together, our affection, our piety, and our devotion were uninterrupted.

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Record continued, until the Author's Departure from Ireland.

Launch'd from the shore, on life's rough ocean tost,
To my swol'n eye my star of guidance lost ;
Torn, from my grasp, my path-directing belm,

While waves, succeeding waves, my prospects whelm.
BY the malpractices of the second husband of my maternal grand-

mother, a large share of my mother's patrimony passed into other hands. I accidentally obtained intelligence of some fraudulent proceedings of the great personage, by whom it was then holden. We did not possess ability to support a prosecution for the recovery of our rights. Some time after the demise of my father, the person, who resided

upon the estate, was sued for rent ; to this person I communicated in confidence, what I knew to be fact. I assured him, the great man, who retained the estate, had no legal claim to it ; and I advised him not to

the rent.

He followed my advice, and the business came before a court of judicature. The gentleman, who sued the tenant, summoned me, as a witness, to prove, that the tenant had occupied the house the specified number of years; thus I was unexpectedly present at the trial, and the interference of providence produced a result, far beyond our most sanguine expectations. The tenant denied the right of the landlord to demand the rent, alleging, that if he paid it to him, he might hereafter be compelled to pay it to another. “ To whom ?” interrogated the court. “ To Mrs. Murray and her children, to whom

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