That thou wert wander'd from the studious walls To learn strange arts, and join a Gypsy tribe: Long since, and in some quiet churchyard laid; Some country nook, where o'er thy unknown grave Tall grasses and white flowering nettles waveUnder a dark red-fruited yew tree's shade. No, no, thou hast not felt the lapse of hours, For what wears out the life of mortal men? 'Tis that from change to change their being rolls; 'Tis that repeated shocks, again, again, Till having us'd our nerves with bliss and teen, Thou hast not liv'd, why should'st thou perish, so? Else hadst thou spent, like other men, thy fire. But thou possessest an immortal lot, And living as thou liv'st on Glanvil's page, Because thou hadst — what we, alas, have not! For early didst thou leave the world, with powers Fresh, undiverted to the world without, Firm to their mark, not spent on other things; Free from the sick fatigue, the languid doubt, Which much to have tried, in much been baffled, brings. O Life unlike to ours! Who fluctuate idly without term or scope, Of whom each strives, nor knows for what he strives, And each half lives a hundred different lives; Who wait like thee, but not, like thee in hope. Thou waitest for the spark from Heaven: and we, Light half-believers of our casual creeds, Who never deeply felt, nor clearly will'd, Whose insight never has borne fruit in deeds, Whose vague resolves never have been fulfill'd: For whom each year we see Breeds new beginnings, disappointments new; Who hesitate and falter life away, And lose to-morrow the ground won to-day Ah, do not we, Wanderer, await it too? Yes, we await it, but it still delays, And then we suffer; and amongst us One, Tells us his misery's birth and growth and signs, And how the dying spark of hope was fed, And how the breast was sooth'd, and how the head, And all his hourly varied anodynes. This for our wisest: and we others pine, And wish the long unhappy dream would end, And waive all claim to bliss, and try to bear With close-lipp'd Patience for our only friend, Sad Patience, too near neighbor to despair; But none has hope like thine. Thou through the fields and through the woods dost stray, Roaming the country side, a truant boy, Nursing thy project in unclouded joy, And every doubt long blown by time away. O born in days when wits were fresh and clear, And life ran gayly as the sparkling Thames; Before this strange disease of modern life, Its heads o'ertax'd, its palsied hearts, was rife - Still fly, plunge deeper in the bowering wood! Averse, as Dido did with gesture stern From her false friend's approach in Hades turn, Wave us away, and keep thy solitude. Still nursing the unconquerable hope, With a free onward impulse brushing through, By night, the silver'd branches of the glade Far on the forest skirts, where none pursue, On some mild pastoral slope Emerge, and resting on the moonlit pales, Freshen thy flowers, as in former years, With dew, or listen with enchanted ears, From the dark dingles, to the nightingales. But fly our paths, our feverish contact fly! And we should win thee from thine own fair life, Soon, soon thy cheer would die, Thy hopes grow timorous, and unfix'd thy powers, And thy clear aims be cross and shifting made: And then thy glad perennial youth would fade, Fade, and grow old at last and die like ours. Then fly our greetings, fly our speech and smiles! And saw the merry Grecian coaster come, And knew the intruders on his ancient home, The young light-hearted Masters of the waves; And snatch'd his rudder, and shook out more sail, And day and night held on indignantly O'er the blue Midland waters with the gale, To where the Atlantic raves Outside the Western Straits, and unbent sails There, where down cloudy cliffs, through sheets of foam, Shy traffickers, the dark Iberians come; And on the beach undid his corded bales. Matthew Arnold. E |