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when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. If ye be reproached for the name of Christ, happy are ye, for the Spirit of glory and of God resteth upon you. On their part he is evil spoken of, but on your part he is glorified.

The next day while at work this text of scripture came to me, Matt. 5th chap. 6th ver. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled. I believed I then could say from my heart, Lord thou knowest I do hunger and thirst after righteousness more than any thing else. The next day I spent my time in reading and prayer, but found no relief in mind. The next, which was the 10th of January, 1815, my mind through the day was in a despairing frame, in view of my past life. About 8 o'clock in the evening, while standing at my bench, I concluded I was given over, and misery and despair must be my lot forever. The time had been that I might have had religion; but then it was too late. Here I sunk down in tears, and sorrow overwhelmed my sinking soul.-— While in this distress, I heard as it were a soft and pleasant voice saying to me, Behold the Lamb of God, that taketh away the sin of the world: And then was presented to my mental view the dear Saviour, from his birth to his death. He seemed one of the most innocent looking persons ever beheld by mortal eyes; and in every sense he represented the lamb, particularly in his innocence and love. And for this reason John called him the Lamb of God. And as he was offered on the cross and

there tasted death for every man. I thought if his love was so great as to come into this world and undergo such unparalleled sufferings, and then die to save the chief of sinners, there was hope for me, as I felt willing to obey all he required in his gospel. I then viewed him on the mercy seat, and he seemed to ask me three questions; the first was, are you willing to come out from the world and forsake its carnal pleasures and are you willing to be despised for my sake, and to suffer persecution while in the world; and the third and last question was, are you willing to die this night, and leave all your connexions and dearest friends on earth, if you can have an evidence that your sins are forgiven? I answered Lord, yes; thou know est I am willing to give up the world with all its pleasures, and to suffer reproach and persecution, and even sacrifice my own life for thy sake; and then said, Lord, I give myself up to thee, it is all that I can do. As soon as I had given up all, I found peace, and the glory of God filled my soul. I never enjoyed such exquisite happiness in all my life; my love extended to the whole world, and I felt as though I had not an enemy on the earth. Christian people were as dear to me as my own relatives. I was so happy I could sleep but little through the night. I wanted then to see the whole world together, and tell then what an inestimable blessing religion was. In this way I went on rejoicing for some days; but all at once my mind became dark, I then doubted, and thought my former hopes were vain, but I said if I have not experienced religion I will not give up

praying. I concluded about this time to make my friends in Middleborou a visit. On my way I stopped in the woods, kneeled down and prayed, O Lord, if I have been converted, give me an evidence of it this day; if not, roll on my conviction, for thou knowest I do not wish to take up with anything short of that religion which will stand in the dying hour. I then went on my way and arrived at my father's house about twelve o'clock. I had not been long in the house before my mother informed me that my sister Sarah had experienced religion but a few days previous. I replied I could rejoice, for I had prayed for her while I was under conviction. She was five miles from home that day, at the house of another sister; and as I started on my way to see her, I tho't of my prayer in the morning; the sun was fast descending the western horizon, and if it was not answered before the day was gone, I should' think I had no religion. But previous to arriving at the house of my sister, the text in the 14th chap. John, and 27th verse, was applied to my sinking mind, attended by the Holy Comforter, which was as follows: Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you, not as the world giveth, give I unto you; let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. I said Lord, thou knowest I never received such peace from the world; it is a heavenly peace, it is like a river flowing from the fountain of immortal glory. In this comfortable state of mind, I entered the house of my brother Peirce, and met the sister who had lately experienced religion at the door; I took her

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by the hand, and told her I was never so happy in all my life; my other sister coming immediately into the room, I said to her, dear sister, your prayers for me are answered, for God has blessed my soul with heavenly peace. A number of my cousins being present who had been converted years before, were made very joyful to see me happy in the Lord and glory to God was given by all in the house, for his converting grace, and glory filled my soul. In this happy state of mind I went to meeting that evening, and found most of my young friends rejoicing in the love of God; and after hearing a number of them speak of his goodness and mercy to them, I then arose for the first time, to speak in a public meeting, and to tell what God had done for me. I can truly say I took more comfort in this meeting, than I ever did in all the parties of pleasure I ever went to in my life; and could say one day in thy courts, O Lord, are better than a thousand clsewhere. In this happy state of mind I continued day and night, for some time, and tho't my warfare was over; and concluded I should always enjoy the same felicity. I then returned to Taunton to my work, all things went on well, my mind was above the world while my hands were employed in it. Invitations to join in parties of pleasure were rejected for the company of the humble Christian. Brother William Stall a member of the Baptist church, was as a kind father, and his house as a home to me, where I spent many delightful evenings with him and his family. Through the winter I had great anxiety to see his family convert

ed, and often prayed for them, and trust my prayers were not in vain, for one daughter soon experienced religion and was baptized, she and her mother in one day. About this time I was introduced by brother Stall to an aged Christian woman, the widow of Judge Padelford, who was a member of the Congregational church, in that town. 1 found her to be a mother in Israel, and a friend indeed; many instructions she gave me which were comforting to my mind; I often prayed in her house after a pleasant evening had been spent in religious conversation. Her daughter was converted about this time, and followed Jesus in the way. I often felt it my duty to go to houses in the place and pray with the people, where liberty was granted. I found great satisfaction in taking up my cross, but soon discovered that the devil was greatly disturbed at my praying; he set his servants to mock and stone me in the streets, for praying, but the promises of Jesus supported me under persecution.

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Of my first speaking in public-Of the great reformation that then took place-Of being convinced water baptism was a command, and being baptized-Of go. ing to New-Bedford-Having some evidence of being called of God to, preach.

About two months had now elapsed, since I had experienced religion. I had information that the next first day Elder Cilton was to preach two miles from the village, at

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