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our religious society is advancing, notwithstanding so many wrong things prevail amongst us; there is also a succession of valuable ministers and elders rising up, in divers places.

1st mo. 22nd, 1812. In turning over and reviewing the leaves of my past life, I thought, that altho' I have had my trials, temptations and troubles, as much sometimes as I could wade thro', and at times hard beset as it were to keep my chin above the waves of cross occurrences;-yet in looking round and remembering the deep exercises and troubles of some of my near relatives, I conclude my afflictions and trials, as yet, have been far less than theirs; and likewise very far short of those of

old school. mates, cotemporaries and acquaintances; many of whom I have observed suffered great afflictions both of body and mind. But very few of them are now living,-divers of my early acquaintances having died young, and some in the midst of their days, by cleaving unto wicked ways. So when we consider the many snares, temptations and dangers that we, poor frail mortals, are exposed to, we may well conclude our standing and walking is on slippery places, or as it were on a sea of glass, mingled with fire; requiring great watchfulness and care from day to day. William Penn says, “A man may lose a good frame of spirit, apon very trifles;" and as I have often observed what small matters have wounded and crippled the poor body, so the mind may, thro' unwatchfulness, he wounded, and our peace disturbed by small things, as well as greater. So that Seneca's words are very just and applicable: “O wretched mortals! how many evils do you continually endure, which might, with great ease have been avoided!


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How many more, indeed, are those of your own making! and how few, in comparison, those of God's and nature's making!”

2d mo. 9th. A mortifying time at meeting. But I have observed that divers ministers of great attainment have passed thro' such seasons. After having stood up with considerable openings and prospects of religious service, and expressed a few sentences, all has closed up and they have sat down abruptly. Altho' this is mortifying to the creature, it may be ordered in best wisdom, to let us see and feel that times and seasons are not in our own power;—that there is one that opens, and none can shut; and when he shuts, none can open;—and that if we get along rightly in the work of the ministry, he must ever put forth, and go before us. Hence I gain this deep instruction, that it is better to appear like a fool to others, than really to be one by offering the sacrifice of fools: for, as Solomon says, “they consider not that they do evil." Now, I suppose that all who are active in the performance of what are called religious duties, and not in the ability which God immediately giveth, do indeed offer “the sacrifice of fools.". From which snare and evil, arising from creaturely activity or spiritual pride, I often desire above all things that I may be preserved.

In the 3rd month, Micajah Collins and Richard Mott, from the eastward, visited us. Their testimony was largely against a conformity to the customs, fashions and spirit of this world, so much prevailing in these days; and recommending humility, plainness and simplicity; with which I could heartily unite. John Woolman says, “One formerly, speaking of the profitableness of true humility, saith, He that troubles not himself with anxious thoughts for more than is necessary, lives little less than the life of angels; whilst, by a mind content with little, he imitates their want of nothing." But does not a conformity to this world make people as unhappy, as if they were created with a thousand more wants than they really have? Hence their imaginary wants are more than their real ones; and, instead of living little less than the life of angels, they come to a life below the life of beasts, and far more out of the right order; for, "the ox knoweth his owner, and the ass his master's crib;' «the stork in the heaven knoweth her appointed time, and the crane, and the swallow," are far more preserved in order than poor mankind. We are told, man was made upright and pure, but he hath sought out many inventions, both in spiritual and temporal concerns, to the great confusion, misery and destruction of multitudes of the human family.

It is a Divine command, with a gracious promise annexed, “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all things needful shall be added unto you." Oh! what stripping work it would make, if we were to divest ourselves of all unnecessary things! and Oh! what an unspeakable blessing it would be to all people, the world over, if they would make it their first and chief concern to seek and submit to the Divine government in themselves! But a conformity to the world makes people, as Seneca says, deliver up their minds to serve their bodies, and make themselves slaves to their appetites. Another observes, that a mind wholly given up to this world, is in a state much like Nebuchadnezzar at grass,-feeding themselves on the food of time, at

the expense of the riches of eternity. So here is the difference between these two ways;-a conformity to this world,--and a seeking first the kingdom of God, and trusting to the promise that all things needful shall be added: the latter leads to a life little less than the life of angels, and the other to a life below the brutish creation.

20th. I saw a letter from Redstone, giving an account of the earthquake that had lately been felt there, in Ohio, and the Western territories, so terrrible that brick and stone houses shook and cracked, as if they would fall. This caused the people to scream and cry out in a dismal manner; and it is said their countenances were marked with seriousness, sadness and gloominess in divers places. But these things wear off, and soon seem to be forgotten. So, after the plague in London, it was remarked that things soon fell into their old channel again. This has very much been the case since the yellow fever prevailed in Philadelphia; when several thousands were swept away in a few months. So that now, as formerly, after having been frequently visited with awful dispensations, it appears that almost as soon, or very soon after the storm is over, things return to their old courses, and very few marks or signs of amendment or reformation are to be seen among the people: although in the midst of these calamities, many were much alarmed, and many promises of amendment were made; even when many people fled as for their lives, and many houses and streets were left desolate,-even houses great and fine were left without inhabitants. But so it was with the children of Israel, when delivered from Pharaoh and the red

sea, " they sang his praise, but they soon forgot his works."

7th mo. 5th. Silent meetings, without the life and power of Truth, are poor indeed; but words uttered without the life, in meetings, are worse and more lifeless. It is undoubtedly true, that in all religious performances and meetings, silence is better than words without life; for Divine life is the crown of all religious assemblies. Isaac Pennington says, “ That gathering which is in the lise and power, is a true church;—that which is not, is a synagogue of Satan, let them profess what they will.” So it should be the earnest concern of all, to labour and wait for the arisings of life into dominion, that thereby we might know the provision of Zion to be blessed, and all her poor to be satisfied with bread.

8th. We went to the burial of our dear sister-inlaw, Rebekah Warrington, widow of Joseph, aged about seventy-eight years. A savour of life and sweet solemnity attended the gathering; among whom, David Comfort, a young man, had something savoury to communicate. Rebekah has been an innocent, tender-hearted, kind friend to all. She has had the care of bringing up many orphan children, who have always esteemed her as a mother. Having escaped the pollutions that are in the world, she was resigned and willing to leave it; and is now gathered to her everlasting rest, " as a shock of corn in its season."

Richard Claridge says, There is life and safety in waiting on God in stillness; for when the natural man or fleshly part is silenced, then is the season for God to work. So a dear friend once said to me, and I have experienced the truth of it, when we get into true stillness, the enemy cannot come in to hurt us;

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